My Uphill Battle With Depression And Anxiety

My depressive mode and anxiety attacks worsened before I mustered the strength to seek help. Help came in the form of a friend who introduced me to Neuro Linguistic Programming (NLP) and Reiki Healing.

Before I had my session, there was a heaviness that I could physically feel. This sets in after a bout with anxiety. I guess depression has this physical effect of heaviness in me. After Reiki, the heaviness was lifted. I felt lighter. I find it unusual that having depression and anxiety does not affect or may seem not to have any effect on my blood pressure.

NLP gave me the tools to examine myself. Truth be told, I might need a few more sessions. It taught me how to deal with my thought processes and my communication. I am still dealing with it but examining one's self is necessary for healing and self care.

Changes are noticeable but it is still an uphill battle for me.

I have been more open and accepting of the fact that I do have depression and anxiety. There are still traces of denial.

My next BIG step is to summon enough courage to go to a Psych. Something I am afraid of. I am wary of the consult and the meds that might be prescribed.

While depression and anxiety is a personal battle that I need to face, I am thankful for the friends that give me support and encouragement to overcome it. However awkward sometimes they sound with their pieces of advice, they mean well. I am most thankful to my life partner, love of my life and  girlfriend for standing by me and holding my hand as I go through this challenging phase of my life.

I hope I'd be able to write more often and publish at least one article or piece per day. I discovered that writing has a calming effect on me though as you can see, if I don't edit what I write the piece just goes to all directions. This piece is intended to be published as I write. In doing so, I might be able to learn more how my thought process work when I write.

It's an uphill battle. I have to deal with a raging war of contradictions in my head. I have to fight my thoughts and make things more logical. I'm doing all these one step at a time, one day at a time.